Arrrrgh
23-03-01, 11:52 AM
http://www.cosplayhell.com/lain.jpg Hey everyone! It feels nice to have all this attention. But I think I have to clear one thing up first by explaining how I now live with 'Arrrrrrrgh'. (who knows how many r's his handle has!? :rolleyes: ) Spoilers are ahead, mind you. It was a little after the reset. After seeing that Alice, who had been my only true friend, could no longer remember me, it was like an important link broke inside of me. I couldn't look at her any more. I couldn't stay. So I ran away from 'home', and soon I became attached only to my computer. It was hard getting used o the fact that after the reset, there weren't any more Navi's. Just pathetic Navi look-alikes called iMacs. And regular PC's, of course. I got on the subway and stole a Dell laptop from some old guy, and began to withdraw into the relative safety of the internet. This began sort of a decline for me. I'd surf the web, downloading large *.avi files containing Layers 1-13. Soon, I moved into other interests, some more...adult, until one day I realized I was sitting in a cheap capsule hotel touching myself while looking at a Chisa and Alice and Eiri full penetration threesome manga. At the tender age of 15, I understood that I need to change the course my life was taking. After a brief stint as a model for a soft drink company, I ran away again and met Derek. Er, 'Arrrrrgh'. He has a foreign exchange student from the US, and he recognized me, even though a year had passed since the series. He made a bad joke about how "he couldn't find me in his c: drive but he could find me selling turnips in the Ginza district." It wasn't love at first sight. Bt we began seeing more of each other, so that one day, I told him he didn't need to make corny jokes about software to get me to like him. He accepted that, and we spent a month together, one of the most treasured memories I have. Unfortunately, he had to return to the US because of school. I never met Rei or Asuka, but Derek told me she had yelled at him for spending too much on me :( . When he left, I vowed to change my life by re-entering in boarding school. I moved back in with my parents, and soon he and I lost touch. I was left in total loneliness, while he had to return to the monotony of school in Maine. I felt awful, and I couldn't stand the way my father looked at me, or the way my mother washed the dishes. I needed to escape again, or my heart would remian caged forever. I moved out again, buying an apartment and corresponding to all the emails Derek had sent me. I decided I wouldn't waste my life. I had gone through life afraid of having my feelings hurts and my trust broken. In order to be happy, I had to take a risk and make myself happy! So one morning I called Derek from a payphone and told him I needed to see him again. He said that I could have Asuka's old room since she had moved out. I was so excited as I returned to my apartment, I'm still amazed that I remembered to pack all my clothes, stuff animals, computers, and other belongings. I took the next flight from Kansai. Let this be a lesson to you all, you must do whatever you can to find true happiness. This may sound like a truism, but if _I_ can do it, you _must_ be able to! :)
Love,
-Lain-
Love,
-Lain-